Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Anger and Frustration

i don't get it.  is there something im missing?!  someone please tell me, i want to know.  i feel like im taking crazy pills.  everyone can't keep saying, "it was nothing you did or didn't do."  obviously it was something i did or didn't do because you aren't giving me the job.  at least the last guy called me back.  most people don't have the balls.  already i know im better than you at your job because i have balls, a spine, and character and obviously are in need of all 3.  just by not calling me back you've shown me that im better than you.  why do you have a job?  i cant get a job with a master's degree, 2 certifications, and 8 years of work related experience.  the past 3 years ive been a full time strength coach who got payed part time, yet everywhere i go there's someone with a job that has no master's degree, no certifications, had no experience but they got a job.  so what is it?  you tell me i need experience but i already have it and they have none.  somebody please explain this to me because it makes no sense.  i get up at 4am, i never slept in, i never showed up late, my athletes liked me, any strength coach ive ever worked for liked me... what is it?  if its cause im a white male at least have the balls to tell me that.  if its because im not as good as the other candidate, i want to meet the other candidate, i want to watch the other candidate's athletes train, i want to seem their athletes do cleans, snatches, and squat in the hole.  i don't believe you.  i love my job but i hate my profession.  dinosaurs of the field fall backwards into jobs as the profession began and they are considered gurus.  some are great dont get me wrong, some cant coach and dont know/understand basic physiology.  but they are the pioneers of the field, they have been doing this for 30 years.  just because you have been doing something for a long time does not make you good at it, it is quite possible to do something wrong for a long time... it happens often in this profession.  and why are football strength coaches revered as the best of our field?  they have the easiest job!  football players are already big, strong, and fast.  trying training females, try training athlete who have never lifted before, trying training athletes who participate in a sport where lifting is not part of the culture, trying training a sport where the sport coach doesn't back you and doesn't put an emphasis on lifting... you wouldn't know the first thing.  but you're a football strength coach, you are the best of the best ha.  then you get a job where you have to assist with football and you're in charge of tennis, track, or volleyball and you don't know how to train them.. you call an olympic guy and ask.  they are athletes you incompetent neanderthal!  they are the same as football players, they run, jump, throw, kick, rotate, slow down, speed up, dive, etc... they push into the ground and use their whole body!  its not hard.  but you are the best of the best.  you are also lazy football strength coach.  you think you arent because you work long, unnecessary hours to justify how grossly overpaid you are but you are.  you want nothing more than to rid yourself of every olympic sport you might have to help with.  if they don't play football they arent even athletes.  if you are a female, well them im sorry you were born with such an unfortunate reproductive system.  haha i dont get it! athletes that play volleyball, soccer, swim, dive, golf, softball, etc, etc are people! they are people.  they deserve the same attention and respect.  and to be honest id rather work with them because they are appreciative, tougher, and more hard working than your football player.  yes that is correct, the team you want nothing to do with is the one i would prefer to train.  you dont know how to train them because it requires a plan, progression, knowledge of strength and conditioning, and a fully functional brain.  what they arent already super strong and aggressive, how do you teach them to be that way?  what they have never lifted before and they dont know how to do the exercises, i dont feel like showing them.  there sport doesnt make millions of dollars, no one cares.  not only do you not know how to train them, you don't want to train them... so give them to me.  i want to train them.  i delight in training them.  i love them.  my other favorite is the functional nba strength coach.  you are an athletic trainer that doesnt know how to make gatorade or operate a stim machine.  all you do is rehab exercises.  you know why the letters re are in rehabilitation because those exercises are to get you back to where you were before an injury or surgery... they are not strength training exercises!  no basketball court is made of bosu ball, physioball, or dyna-disc like material... they are all 94ft of flat hard wood... you are not cutting edge, you are an idoit.  the nsca is a joke, the cscca is an even bigger joke.  if i made a parody of what the cscca is it would fail in comparison to the hilarity of the real thing.  both good intention, both a far cry from what this profession needs to be respected.  its ok to set the standard high.  but some people might not pass.  yea thats the point.  except in this profession a lot of those people who wouldnt pass are considered gurus and giants of the field and that might embarrass them.  they might not feel smart and powerful and cocky and arrogant anymore. tell me that i need experience... its a good thing i have 8 years worth.  tell me education is important... you are lying to yourself and everyone else... how many strength coaches have an undergraduate degree that would allow them to apply to med school?  how many have taken 2 quantum chemistry classes, 2 organic chemistry classes, biochemistry, 2 physics, genetics, human anatomy, human physiology, 2 biology classes, 5 nutrition classes?  how many coaches don't have masters degrees?  there are always strength coaches without master's degrees... if i need education and i have it and they don't have it, how do they have a job and i dont?  am i high on some kind of drug?  please what am i missing?  call my references.  call any person i have EVER worked with or for.  ask anything you want.  how many people can say that.  call any person ive ever worked with or for and ask them anything you want and i guarantee they will tell you i did a good job, they will tell you i worked hard, they will tell you to hire me, they will genuinely, honestly endorse me.  what am i missing?  i can't get a job and its infuriating.  i cant prove that im better than anyone.  athletes are freaks.  it almost doesn't matter what you do, as long as they think they are getting better and you dont hurt them.  i can back my training philosophies up with science, can you?  go out and flip some more tires, look at the crossfit wod to get some ideas... maybe you should do more trx, i heard from an nba strength coach that trx is really good.  whatever you do, don't tell people to squat below 90 degrees of knee flexion, dont tell people to pick heavy objects off the ground, accelerate them violently and using speed, kinesthetic awareness, balance, stability, mobility, and athleticism catch them at the shoulder or overhead. dont do plyos or lift overhead or work on single leg strength.  dont keep things simple and consistent while at the same time challenging the athlete with load.  DO NOT DO THAT.  it will only make your athletes stronger, more powerful, more coordinated, and more athletic... but it will NOT get you a job.  so keep using your sledge hammer, board bench, quarter squats, chains, bands (the more the better i say), trx's, physioballs, bosu balls, dyna discs, and always remember to do as many forearms and floor abs as time will allow because nothing screams athleticism like lying on your back, contorting your neck, while trying to fold yourself in half.  i used to have passion and enthusiasm, now all i have is anger and frustration... in heavy doses.



(sorry the quality is poor but this is how i feel inside)


i know this blog is cynical, sarcastic, and negative but i few minutes ago i was thinking about just typing a string profanities in all caps.  i know thats a bad attitude but its the one i have right now and this is cleansing to me.  i am getting it all out so i can move on.  i hope and pray that God will change me so in the future a comparable event will not shake me but for right now that is not the case.  i may not be right in behaving this way, i may not be godly, but i am at least being honest and real.  im upset. i poured my heart and soul into something for the past 8 years and no one will let me do it.  i cant describe my frustration in words.

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